help! i am really going crazy!

thank yall so much for advice.. i will try all those things but it will definately take some time.. its just so bad and im trying to work on it

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hey. i'm just gonna go straight into my advice... you can take it or leave it or adjust it, but i want to try to help, ok? and you can always message me.

try to not pay attention to the media. they're killing us.
find one thing. just one thing, that you like about yourself. BUT personality-wise only. concentrate on that. then start doing things that make you feel good about yourself. (helping others, like volunteering, making ppl laugh, giving advice, etc.)
be healthy (eat healthy, exercise) being healthy makes you feel good about yourself. just remember, NOT eating, or overexercising is NOT healthy.
believe your bf. why would he tell u ur beautiful if he didn't think so. sounds like you have a good relationship with him, so why would he lie? and besides, who says that a 34 A is not attractive? i saw another girl quote "beauty is in the eye of the beholder". its true.

if this doesn't help, i dunno what i would do. but going to a counselor is good. gain some confidence, girl. i know you have it in you.

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I feel exactly like that..but since yesterday because I got a abortion

Everyone feels this way... a lot of the things you've mentioned I have felt too, it's normal. Your hormones could just be worse so you feel it more & worse than average & it could even be a stage that passes. How long have you been feeling this way? The counsuling is good & you should try to find a way for insurance to cover the doctor stuff... I'm only 16 & don't know a whole lot about it but maybe talking to the counseler would help.

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Some of you probably read posts before about me getting depressed about the way i look and the way i hate how my body looks.. Everyone tells me im skinny but i feel fat.. just like the post about the girl who thinks shes bulimic.. But i am the same way as her except i dont make myself throw up. I feel so ugly all the time and i really cant help it. I cant go out anywhere without comparing myself to other girls thinking they are 10 times prettier that me. I never compare myself to the unattractive people and idk why! My bf tells me im beautiful all the time but i want to think im beautiful more than i want anyone else to think that. I always think of how i want bigger boobs, a flat stomach (cuz its chunky and im 18 years old and am a 34 a bra). I just hate looking in the mirror sometimes and i always have bad days. I get depressed and i think thats what causes me to have anger problems too. I yell so much at my bf over stuff that i shouldnt because its ridiculous to get mad about.. Lately.. like that passed couple of months my anger has gotten worse and ive been punching walls when i get mad at him. I keep brusing up my hands and knuckles when i do it. Its like thats all i can turn to when i get so mad. And i tried pulling my hair out once and im telling you i scream so loud. its way passed yelling. And idk why i get this way.. and only to my bf. He is so good to me and i treat him so bad and i really do feel bad the way i treat him.. I just seem to keep doing it. We hang out everyday and he's 3 years older than me. We've almost been together for 11 months. We love eachother so much. I just dont know whats wrong with me. And i cry everyday because ive gotten too angry or just depressed about myself. I hate my self so much and just get the feeling of dying all the time. I wouldnt kill myself but i hate living sometimes and think im just a screw up! Im in counseling every thursday now but i wish i could get to the doctor so they can run some tests on me.. but i dont have insurance.. This counciling is free.. its for teens who have problems. I also always think my bf is doing something wrong even though he isnt. I just accuse him of everything even though i dont have a reason to.. its just my mind is always telling me negative things and never positive.. I always stress about everything and im never happy.. Im happy some of the time but sometimes i just get so down and my bf said im too hard on my self.. i hate my body so much that when me and my bf have s3x.. i have to wear a shirt ): cuz im embarrassed and dont want him to see what i see. Everything is so hard and i just want out ):

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* I love Michael Austin forever*

lOvE cAn Be A vErY dIfFiCuLt ThInG, bUt If YoUr In LoVe... YoU cAn Do AnYtHiNg!

...LOVE is a very beautiful and strong feeling...

LiFE iS TOUGH AND STRESSFUL! THE WAY TO GET THROUGH iT iS GOD...