okay, well things just got uber complicated. today was the soccer finals, and of course, i was there supporting juan. anyways, drama club came out about halfway through the game. alisons in drama club. i was getting so annoyed cuz she kept flirting with other guys. and then when our school won the finals (pretty much cuz of juan
) i congratulated him but i had to leave because my ride home was there. so i just learned that juan was going through a feeling of "euphoria". i was iming him, so i know this is all true, cuz it came straight from him. he was like "i was going thru a euphoria" but thats not the part that bothers me, what bothers me is that because of this "euphoria", juan kissed alison. on the lips! its freaking killing me! and to make it worse, morgan was right there, watching this happen, having her heart broken all over again!
juan was having a "heart ache" so i went therapist. yesterday i talked to him for 3 1/2 hours, talking about this. i keep giving him advice, and he keeps telling me more. it makes me
so happy that he can confide in me!! anyway, today i was like "if you could go out with
anyone who would it be?" then he was like "anyone?" so i went "yes" then he said "last year it wudv been" then 2 minutes later he continued "morgan no doubt". (which as you can imagine is breaking my heart) and then he said "but alison sparked a fire" to which i responded "yeah..
thats awkward." so he says "she did tho". after many "tmi"s from me, he explained. he was talking about how to him they are so much alike, the way they act, the way they talk, they both "reason the same way".
i was like "i honestly thought (think) that if you like alison & morgan equally, you shouldnt be going out with alison. 1st of all cuz you like them equally. 2nd of all cuz its not fair to yourself. and 3rd you really got to think about the friendship first." after some back talk from juan, he agreed. so then i said "youve gotta have a really deep friendship in order for your commitment to work out (thank you think smart!) like i said, i think you should take a step back and look at all of your girl friends and see who youve got the deepest friendship with. who you have the most in common with." (last week our school did think smart which was an abstinence program. they told us that in a relationship youve gotta build up like you would build a house. first the foundation which is the friendship. then the walls which are the commitment. then the roof was a loving sexual relationship. awkward i know. but in the foundation there was supposed to be "trust, respect & love".) so i was telling him that you
really need to have an amazing friendship before you start going out, if you want a successful relationship. then i said "youve gotta ask yourself some questions juan. like what you want in a girlfriend." then i was like "which girl friend of yours do you feel you can tell anything? which girl friend can you trust the most? who can you relate to? who is there for you all the time? dont tell me, but think about it. girl who is the answer to those types of question is gf material" so he responded "i like ur thinking btw. someday ur gunna be an eccelent gf/person. think of it as a compliment" and then he logged off!
idk what to think of that! is it just me, or did that come off as just a tad flirty?
but anyways, from what i know about juan, he trusts me the most out of any of his other girl friends. its just that i think since im giving him all this advice, he'll always just think of me as a friend. get what im saying??
well please tell me what you think. and im really sorry this post is so scattered!!
oh, and btw, this is euphoria's definition--
–noun Psychology. a feeling of happiness, confidence, or well-being sometimes exaggerated in pathological states as mania.
lol i had to look it up
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Any ideas anyone? Thanks so much!!
