Okay, so I have to admit: I'm a bit of a control freak.
Okayyy, so I have to admit again: That was an understatement; I am a MAJOR control freak.
It really annoys me when things don't happen the way they're meant to...when things are out of my control...
And that is EXACTLY what happened today.

Joel has been one of my closest friends for as long as I can remember! Today we were talking about some of the people in our class and who they like. As part of conversation, I asked him who he liked. And instead of being totally upfront and truthful as he always is, he made me play 'The Guessing Game'. I was fine to begin with, but as my guesses kept on being rejected, i started to get this feeling in my stomach where I knew who's name was going to be left at the end.

Turns out that he likes me. UGH. This is NOT meant to happen. I have a BOYFRIEND who is NOT JOEL. Joel is my BEST FRIEND. I know I can't control the way Joel feels...As much as I'd like to anyway. Maybe this is one of these situations where I have to just let go, and let things run it's course...