ok i love my friends, especially one who im really close with but now is having bf issues and failed her road test and I CANT DEAL WITH HER

she is dealing with this soooo poorly and she doesnt listen to what i have to say. i know she hears me but if she is going to keep talking about the SAME FCKING THING OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER again then she NEEDS TO CHANGE WHAT SHE IS DOING

ugh i just really need to vent here. i dont want anyone to respond or anything.

i am just really upset because i finally get my first hook up. first i was upset that it was a random hu but i dealt w that and then i get stuck with having a random hu and the kid still liking me. but im happy about that too so im confused. and i hate hate HATE that he has a gf and i cant see him ever and all that stuff bc he is a nice guy and like the only one who is cute and actually wants to hu w me. and it frustrates me so much that matt doesnt like me like that. its sooo annoying bc he is cute and i like him and i know he USED to like me and i messed all that up bc i was soooo stupid back then and i know i shouldnt live in the past but its realllly annoying not to be able to tell him how i feel. now i find out he hu w a freshman. A FRESHMAN? like really that seems so below him and everything and i think he should tell me these things bc i tell him things. maybe thats the problem - maybe i need to stop telling people things? no, that wouldnt work...that'd be so not like me. no.

UGH I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHAT TO THINK AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY. and on top of all I HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK AND STRESS AND AHHH.

ok that's my vent...

some new years resolutions:

(italics means that i accomplished it!)

-learn to lie --> ive done it a little i guess.....
-stop biting nails ---> its been almost 3 weeks! edit: and then i started biting them again...and now i stopped again
-get over matt --> i really do still like him but now i realize that there are other guys out there for me. if he asked me out i would go out with him but i am very happy to just be his friend as well. edit: i hooked up with matt this year....that really didn't get me anywhere but i did hook up with him!
-get a first kiss --> this was most definitely accomplished :D
-exercise more
-find a guy --> i guess this was accomplished with the whole hook up thing but not really because it did not result in me getting a boyfriend....new stuff = rob, tim.....edit: had a boyfriend this year...even if it was only for 2 weeks really (but 2 months technically)
-keep away from negative people --> not involved with lauren or alyssa anymore!!!!
-prove i'm not a little girl --> well in theory this is accomplished but people's preconceived notions make it hard to actually accomplish it

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Edited by YummyBunny at 03/02/2009 10:15 AM PST

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Edited by YummyBunny at 03/18/2009 3:58 PM PDT

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Edited by YummyBunny at 03/18/2009 3:58 PM PDT

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Edited by YummyBunny at Jun 21, 2009 4:50 PM EDT

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Edited by YummyBunny at Dec 31, 2009 12:50 AM EST

12/21/08

-al---- and lau---
-ma--
-reb----
-h------ u-
-k----- and preggs
-being the last one