My life is so busy. I knew high school would make my life busier but i didnt expect this!

4 classes-homework in each- tests in all of them this week.
the school work alone is crazy. but add in ringette, friends, family, chores, and chilll time makes it almost impossible.

i wish i could have a day. just one day. that i could relax and wrap my head around everything.

These past few months have gone by unbelievably fast. Not only has time gone by really quickly but so much stuff has happened. Im not talking about drama and that stuff. Im talking life changing stuff.

I got confirmed (religious thing)
I graduated elementary school.
I got two kittens.
I was put on the most amazing soccer team ever<333
I started high school.
I have to wear uniforms.

Thats the major stuff. Its been a lot to take in, in about 4 or 5 months. I just wish I could slow time down and enjoy every second of my life instead of realizing how much I should have enjoyed something. I have been so focused on dealing with the next big thing that I havent gotten a chance to enjoy whats in front of me. I know that time isnt going to stop but I'd love to know how to slow down my life and enjoy every part of it.

and then.... there is my crush. He is gorgeous, smart, funny, and most important he likes me for ME. he doesnt care that I'm not really part of the popular crowd which is a nice change from grade school where popularity meant everything. but in high school you cant pin point which group is the "cool" group. everyone is friends with who they want to be. but i mean i love being liked for who I am instead of being ignored for who Im not. but i dont know if he likes me the way I like him. I dont want things to go to fasst. I want to be friends with him for a while first. I want to get to know him as a frriend before something more than that. Also my good friend is his ex so before i can let anything happen i need to be sure she doesnt like him. but i dont even know if i want anything to happen right now. there is too much involved with that.


high school. oh high school. its well. different. the first few days were really rough. I focused more on where i wanted to be rather than being happy with where I am. But now I am doing that and it makes things so much better. I have made a lot of new friends but what I had forgotten was that you dont need to trade in old friends for new ones. I realized i needed my old friends. Its hard. I dont feel really close to anyone right now. I went from feeling like i had a bunch of people i could tell anything to to having no one i could truly open up to. and thats hard. now especially because i just want to open up to someone and there really isnt anyone to do that to. but i guess over time that'll change. i hope. <33

Graduating was hard. It was a lot of fun but that night when they played friends forever I cried. It really hit me then that that would probably be the last time all us kids from our school would be together. i wasnt ready for that to happen. but i guess its bitter sweet because I dont have to see people from my old school that I dont want to. I can still talk to people from my old school but i can totally avoid others. its getting better already but. i dont know there is a lot of mixed feelings.

my kittens(L) my babies. they are so sweet. they will sleep in my arms. talk to me in their own way. but they have to be the laziest ones i have ever seen. they sleep all the time. but i love them. they are so cute.

my soccer team is amazing. the girls are really cool and there isnt really any team drama. we all get along with each other and our team does really well. but next year it wont be like that which is sad. but again another reality i have to deal with. Im going to miss these girls a lot. and i really hope we all stay friends.

anyway thats a small glimpse into my life. if anyone actually took the time to read this thanks.