not to sound depressed but im so sick of being me. it gets really annoying cuz its lke ALL my friends are pretty little social butterflies and everyone always loves them. im just so sick of being the ugly one. i mean its just annoyin to watch all the boys flirt and fall all over them and just ignore me like im not even there. not sayin i want dudes droolin all over me and crap but gosh im sick of just *bein there* i mean i recently had a huge crush and thought maybe i mite actually have my first boyfriend but of course everything had to come crashing down just like normal. im pretty sure he never lked me but he sure liked my best friend....i kno i probably sound like im tellin an annoyin little sob story or watever but today has just really been upseting for me and i really need to vent. so if ur gonna comment please no mean stuff cuz im already in a seriously sad mood

ok so i just found out he had a myspace page so i added him last night. i'm still waiting on him to accept me but wen he does wat do i talk about? i mean after i say hey or wats up i dont want the conversation to be over. so if u guys have any ideas or suggestions i would really appreciate them. im shy even wen im textin or iming and stuff and i hate awkward pauses and stuff so i really would like some advice on wat to say.
PS. sorry if im annoying u guys with talking about him but im not really used to guys liking me or talking to me so this is like a huge deal for me and i dont wanna ruin my chances. so again any advice at all would be nice. thnx

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Edited by mrsznumber1 at Nov 12, 2009 7:13 AM CST

so i've been a little disappointed lately. my crush hasnt been to schoool in two days so i havent really got to follow up on the whole weekend thing. i had been waiting pretty much all sunday to see him on monday so of course i wasnt happy to find out he wasnt even there. we're out of school tomorrow so all i can hope is that he's there thursday. so anyway i get crushes really easy so i promised myself i wouldnt let my entire world revolve around him so im gonna try not to think about him til i see him again *which will be hard* anyway i was just really bored so i decided to blog. i'll probably post again when i finally see him

i had the best night last night. i went over my friends house and spent the night. she lives in a little apartment community so all the kids pretty much hang outside together. anyway my crush is one of the ppl that stays over there. i got to actually have a real convo with him for the first time since last year. i mean i try to speak to him and stuff but we're not in the same grade so i dont see him often enough to actually talk to him. so i havent talked to him since we had a class together last year. it was the most fun night of my life. i still dont kno if he likes me or not but he was def. flirting with me and he messed with me like all night. i kno he was probably just being playful but i still loved every minute of it. anyway im just too happy not to write about this . so i guess i have the rest of the year to find out if he likes me....right now im havin fun just hangin around him. oh yea and i will most definitely be spending the night at my friend's house more lol

i had a pretty long day at school. usually fridays are kinda chill but i had work from start to finish. i got a little upset today cuz me and my friend ran into my crush and it seemed like they were flirting with each other. its really awkward for me and it always makes me mad cuz she knows how much i like him. i kno i cant blame her if he likes her, but i wish she would at least stop flirting with him in my face. i kinda wish i never told her i liked him in the first place. it'll only make it more embarrasing if he likes her and not me. anyway i just really needed to vent so hopefully i'll feel a little better now...