i honestly can't believe how fast summer flew by! its been so long since i last posted a blog, but i've been busy.
i was at the beach for a week at the end of july, and then i went to ohio for a week to watch my cousins because my aunt had a babysitting issue with her nanny, and now i've been home for a week and i've basically had nothing to do, but somehow i'm keeping busy? i've just really started to get bored lately because i've done everything there is to do.

my cousin was murdered a few weeks ago, while i was at the beach, and we're having a memorial service for him on tuesday. and then i'm off to the beach again on wednesday! i'm going with my family, one of my best friends, and another family who we're good friends with; just until monday night. then i'll be home for tuesday and school starts on wednesday. i don't want to say i'm dreading school because i'm not. i love school; i just don't want summer to be over already. although i have to say i am anxious to go back because i've lost 10 lbs this summer so i want to see what everyones reactions will be. and i feel so great about myself! i have so much confidence that i've never had beforee! (:

i'm off to give my room/closet/bathroom a good cleaning before school starts and then pack for the beachhh! (:

soo, i've been kind of stressed out lately. like theres a few situations where i have no idea what to do. i just want to let them go on the back burner for a while, but i don't know if they will explode into something more and i know they will never go away unless i face them. i just don't really think i'm ready to do that right now.

it's summer and i want to be stress free & relax but i really haven't been able to. i want to pretend like i don't have a care in the world, although everything that i do, i do cautiously. i wish i wasn't so cautious and could just go out and party. i've had my life planned out since i was like 12 and it would really suck to get caught drinking and have my whole life messed up.

well i'm going to try to go back to sleep now. maybe tomorrow if i feel like it, i'll post more about what i'm talking about.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

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hey everyone.
i don't know how it happened but i lost 2 lbs last weekk. now i'm 157. i ate junk food all week, i mean we did ride bikes everywhere, but still.

i'm getting ready to go to my friends party. the party is at 7:30, but i'm going over at 4 to help her get ready & help put out food & everything.

then i'll be home around midnight and i'm going to the lake tomorrow morning at 5. funnn =)

but i won't have any internet access at all until at least monday morning. i think we're coming back really late sunday night.

& my cousin i coming home with us so i doubt i'll be on the computer all that much the next week either.

hope youre having a great summer! (:
xox

i got back from the beach on saturday afternoon. it was better than last year because my friend wasn't pmsing because she is now on birth control & having se.x with random guys. i'm sure her mom loves it because it seems like her mom just wants her to get pregnant. oh well; i can't really do anything & her having sex doesn't make me think anything less of her.

when i got home, i went over to my other best friend's house to tan & swim. & plan her party, which is tomorrow (:

yesterday i went to her house again to finish planning & then we went to the grocery store to get food & a cake for it.

today i packed for the lake. i'm going to our lake house on wednesday morning really early. i'll be there until late sunday night.

i still have AP books to read =/ i haven't even finished the first one. FML.

at least i'm having a good summer & getting tan (:

xoxo Kristen.

so i weighed myself tonight & i weigh 159, so i lost some weight this week.
i went shopping yesterday and bought some really cute shirts and i feel great about myself & my body now! i just want to lose a little bit more before the beginning of school, which i should be able to do.

i leave for the outer banks on saturday. i'll probably have my period because i was supposed to get it on monday, but its late. oh well, i'll still have fun =)

i seriously can not believe it's summer. its been so rainy and icky here lately. i need to tan.

& i have summer AP english books to read. four of them :/ i'm like 1/4 of the way through the smallest one. yay me. hahah (:

i ate horrible this weekend so i'm not even weighing myself.
i'm kind of annoyed with my friends mom.
shes living vicariously through her daughter. and i'm going to the beach with them in a few weeks =/
she always wants my friend to have a boyfriend. and when she has a boyfriend, all she does is talk to him non-stop and text him all the time, and when shes not talking to him, shes talking about him. she blows me off for them all the time and its so annoying. and now her mom wants her to get her belly button pierced to attract more boys. psycho.

anyways i have to lose a lot of weight fast for the beach.

yesterday i did a few on demand things, and they went well(:
today i'll probably do a little bit of toning if i have time and feel like it.

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on another note:
its almost summer. this school year has been amazing. i have met so many people who have influenced me to become who i am today. i have met so many new people who i just passed and said hey to before. now we can carry on a conversation and we hang out outside of school. my teachers were amazing. i absolutely adored every single one of them. i think my bio teacher is the best teacher i've ever had. and my english teacher was such a sweetheart. my math teacher pretended to hate me, but really i know that she loved how much i loved math. my history teacher was a nut, but she was so cute [in a little old lady way] and sweet.

now don't get me wrong, i LOVE summer more than anything else, but i'm going to be so sad to have this school year come to an end. it means that i'm going to be a junior and i'm almost graduating.

my summer is going to be soo busy, so i'll try to update when i can, but i think the posts will be few & far between. i'm going to the beach for the weekend so while i'm there i think it will really sink in that its summer(:
this is what i'm doing this summer:
june 5-7: beach, new jersey
june 20-27: beach, obx
july 2-5: lakehouse
july 25-august 2: beach, new jersey
and at some point i'm going to my aunts house in ohio, and i'll probably go to the beach some other times too.

xoxo kristen

okay, today i'm officially starting my weight loss.
i said i was a few weeks ago, and i did but now i'm getting strict. i'd been stressed because of school & everything.
finals start tomorrow, and i dont need to study a ton, so i'm going to work out for about an hour today.
i'm not sure what i'm going to do but i'll let you know tomorrow. (:

and i'm not sure why my weight was so low last week, probably because i weighed myself 1st thing in the morning, but now:
weight: 161lbs.

i don't know what week this is, i can't remember when i last posted. and i haven't weighed myself today but i did go shopping!
and i lost a pants size! (: i used to be a 10. i've been a 10 since 5th or 6th grade. [back then i also weighed 175 lbs!]
and i could have gone down to size 6, but the thighs were a little bit tight in them so i got an 8. it felt amazing because i can't remember EVER being in the single digits, and i know thats horrible, but its true (:
my goal is to be a 6 by the start of school.

i am 5'9"
and i weigh 154 pounds.
by next week i would LOVE to be 152 lbs.
& i say this as i'm sitting here fat eating a brownie. haahh

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This blog is now going to be to track my weight loss. i'll have some info on whats going on in my life, but mainly it will be my exercises & eating.

i'm sure that there are MANY girls on here who want to lose weight because of swimsuit season. i'm one of them. since the end of february/beginning of march, i've lost 10 lbs by doing abs & eating healthier. not trying very hard to look hot.

now that its almost summer, i need to get serious. i lovee to swim, but i live in PA and its very hard to find an indoor pool, and the outdoor pools in my area don't open until after we're out of school for the summer and i need to look good by then. i was going to go on a strict diet. like breakfast, lunch, & dinner. with maybe one healthy snack. and then i'm going to continue to do abs, and i have hard abs, but i need to add in cardio because i have fat over my abs so you can't see them. and i'm going to do upperbody stuff

so i'm going eat well proportioned meals.
I play softball and i have a game 2-3 nights a week, so on the nights i don't have games, i'm going to ride my bike for 30-45 minutes.
each night i'm going to do:
10 pushups, gradually working up to 25 or 30
100 crunches
40 bicycles
10 reverse pushup things

and when i have time, i'm going to do some pilates on demand (:

i'll be back at least once a week to post what i've been up to & how much i've lost.

xoxo
kristen

its april (:
its been so warm here lately. but the past week has been rainy. like all week. i hate the rain.
i've been reallyyy busy. i have like no time anymore.
i didin't get tickets to the taylor swift concert, or the jonas brothers concert.
i've been cleaning all day.
my mom fired our cleaning lady, so now we clean.
i clean all 7 bathrooms in my house once a week, and i get $40 a month.
its a pretty good deal (:
xoxo
Kristen

i'm home tonight, so i decided to post.
i'm just listening to music & chilling.
this past week was the SLOWEST week of my life.
i had to work today. this one guy thought i was cute (:
recently, i've been having a different fashion sense. i've been getting really dressed up, just to go to school & out places.
i'm trying to get tickets to the taylor swift concert in june.
& i'm going to try with all my might to get jonas brothers tickets, for july.
and then if my friend can get one for me, the keith urban concert in august.
by the time school starts, i'll be all concerted out.
which speaking of, school ends soon.
its almost summerrrrrr! (:
it will be MAY in less than 2 months. which is good because i got in trouble, so i'm not allowed to go take my permit test until may. my parents rules. ughh. its not like i got in trouble with the law or anything, i just talked back to my mom. =/
and then in JUNE it will be SUMMER.
yessssss(:
my summer is going to be concert, beach, lake, beach, concert, beach, concert, & then back to school. with some work in between. hahahah =)
i'm trying really hard to save up my money for gas & suchhh.
i honestly, can not believe it's HALFWAY through MARCH. i mean holyyyyy moly. i remember when it was christmas, now its 1/4 of the way to christmas 2009.

have a wonderful weekk =)
love,
kristen

wow.
its been a month since i've posted.
i'm 16 (:
life is hectic!
it's almost summer, and i'm almost a junior(:
barbados was amazing but catching up on all that work was exhausting.
& i've worked for the last 3 or 4 saturdays, so thats so tiring.
and tonight i'm going to thon.
its like the penn state thon, but its at my school, its only 12 hours [8pm-8am], and you don't have to stand up the whole time. its going to be so much fun, but i'm going to be dead tomorrow(:

i'll post more later,
xoxo,
kristen

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Edited by love.foreverx4 at 03/08/2009 7:02 AM PDT

i'm tired.
exhausted actually.
i really should be packing right now.
in less than 36 hours i leave for barbados.
& i have to work tomorrow =/
i've started to pack, but honestly i have a very short attention span & i have to do it in spurts. hahah
but i will get done with it.
and i have soo much to make up for next week.
its insane.
i'll post when i get homeee(:
have a great week!
xox
Kristen