Love is a battlefield and thats not lie. You have to fight for the one you love. But there are some times when its had to fight for that one you love. When they give nothing worht fight for. I keep you in my thoughts and prayers and heart all day everyday. You will never leave those things no matter how much you hurt me. I think that love is something worth fight for but sometimes that other perosn should be fighting with you. I need you to fight with me so that we can get past everything that has was or will be said. Well I have to say that i will love you at your worst and your best what ever the day brings us. I just wish you could know all this and return the favor.

Well the joy and happiness has drained away like the sun outside. Happy again no lonley yes. You say you don't like her but then you go and kiss her. Well i will not fight for your attintion or affection, if it is not offered in the deal i dont want you. I think that the text's and the emails were full of lies and my wings are broken yet again from the truth. A war is still being fought between right and wrong and the way i feel about her. My heart stops beating by the thought of you taking my breath away and stopping me in my tracks. Thats the affact you have on me. Some days you make everything dissapear and others you throw it in my face. So why say you care when i can't see it. I blinded by your undescriable beauty and passion. So its a love hate thing for you. i'll guess the next time i see you will be inside my head.

I think that a new storm is coming back through and pouring its soul everywhere it hits. it took your place and now i cant see you through the pain of the storm. The rain that hits me is the tears that have some from your weak body. In with the old and out with the new. I want the new you to leave and the old one to some running back like a rain cloud. Sitting here alone in the dark is not the scaries thing loosing you is. My heart will repair and mend but my soul is broken forever. Taking my lfe wast enough so you came back and stold what little hapiness i had left. Writing words isnt even enough to cover me up from the wetness. I will shield my heart and be cautious on who and what i let in all because of you.

The pain that is seeping it's way bake through is to much to handle. But the power from within will take it and throw it to the sea. My words my not make since to you but to me its like a prayer to my God. I need the power from within to over take the rage and make it happiness again. Loving him is not an option but loving her is all i need to keep me alive. I see you cry and i want to hurt him for hurting you so. The power within will make war of between my heart and head. So don't push me anymore than you have. Emotions are the key to living with yourself and loving yourself. So the power within will over take and make me, me again. Listen to my cry and let it fill you up like a storm and blast your soul apart like there is no tomorrow.

DO you gilrs like this be honest.

i will be seeing you very soon and i cant describe how i feel.I just now that i will smile and feel your warmth fill me up like a ray of sun shine. Your deep brown eyes will stare at me and i will shake in my place like a leaf in the wind. I will let your hand touch mine as if touching a soft pillow and i will fade away in to your touch. When you leave i will been forced to let you go until we see each other again. I know that when you do leave sadness will over take me and let me go like a wave. Heres to me loving you.

i know you listen to my voice and you like it as much as i like yours. I hear you breath and it takes my breath away. I know that your are thinking about me and nobody else. When you text me while im on the phone is stuff you are to scared to say to me which is fine. I just wish you ddnt hid ebehind what you felt and just say it. I want you to be honest with me for once.Stop being so scared please i could never laugh at something so wonderful. The beautiful breakdown is coming and i feel it every second. As the sun goes down my feelings are drowned out by the sound of you cell phone ringing and its her the other girl the one you truly want. So i am left standing here in the middle of the room staring at the wall wondering when you gonna call me back. Im you ride or die and you my ride or die. We complete each other's sentence's and think the same thought. I call that deep and interesting. SOmething tells me that you qant to see me but i am not sure. SO what am i to do ????

I think loving you was a mistake. You are so hot and cold and i dnt knw which one to go on. Like i said befoe i go left and you go rigt. Its hard because i dont know whether to let you go or to try and make more of what we have become. I are the aple of my eye and just want you all to myself. Everytime i out on a sad song or a love song i think of you. Its kinda weird cause my feelings are very strong but that kinda fade in and out. I know that if you knew all this it would probably push you away even more. I dnt want to push you away anymore than you have gone. You tell me you dont want my family to think that me and you are going out or that you turned me bi but you didnt and do yu care that much of wha people think of you. Needing you is like needing air or water i half to have it in my life to survive. Maybe one day i can tell you all this in a letter or maybe to your face. I hope you take it well when i do. My love is still running deep for you. Love you peace

Whats up yall for those who know a little about me well lately i have been down and depressed well i am finally getting happy again i am realizing that i am ooing to be okay. Everything that was bothering me has faded away slow but surely. I know that God answers prayers. Im just happy that i feel happy again. Well thanks a lot for reaidng if you did lol


Well here is a new letter to her the one i love....
When you talk to me now i feel at peac with the earth. You make me wanna do right for everybody around me. I think that everything will be okay one day between you and I. The tenson between us are fading away and were getiing back to our normal selves. Loveing you is not that easy but i will get through it. When i look into your eyes i feel bubbly and lite and i wnat you to just stare at me forever. Cause i coulf look into these deep brown big eyes forever. I want to lay next to you until i met my maker. Only in my dreams will you stay cause i realize we will never be. My love to you my sweet beautiful girl keep my in your thoughts and dreams. Dont you ever think that i dont care cause i will ever stop caring. I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND KEEP ME THERE IN YOU HEART BABY LOVE YOU FOR LIFE........

i dont know weather to be happy or mad at you. You go left i go right and it's so black and white there is no gray area. I'm trying to forget you or just keep you in my thoughts. Well as you hang up on me to tlak to her i fell myself dying again. I think my love is to strong for someone who doesnt love me back. When i told you that i was sad you still had your mind on her. I think that you and i need space and that we should let each other go. i would do anything to love you like a sister again and not a girlfriend I think it would be easier to fall out of love with you then to keep falling for you. In the coming days all there will be in a lot of pain frustration. I think that it will be hard not to wanna love more than i should but i know that me and you will never be cause im to good for you. And when i say this i dont mean it in a bad way. But i would never do the things you have done to me and the others. Hurting people is not a hobby for me. So here is my far well letter to you cause i dont want you anymore . i know that the love you say you have doesnt run as deep as mine. peace and love is all i can say. My tears are gone and my heart will heal itself cause there are plenty more people in this world.

Fot those of you who have read my other blogs i was writing all the things i want to say to someone that i like and i finally did. Here is my new letter


My tears are finally drying on my face as i think of the releaf that you have givin me. My fears have run and through me for months and finally i faced them yesterday. I feel the weight of the world lifting from my shoulders. Even thought we are in an unsteady place i know were gonna be ok again. I hope that maybe you will realize that me and you are meant to be. Well i am happy for now and i will enjoy this joy i got from letting it all out and not holdind back.
Love is all we need, my hand in yours, our hearts as one, together we will make it. love and peace.

Well you tell me one thing and then say another whats your deal. Tell me what you want from me. You tell me something privet and then you run and hide cause you scared of what im going to say. I dont get you one day you say you want me and then the next moment you want her. Tell me the truth cause i would give myself to you body and soul but you keep hiding behind your words. Be real and tell me what you wnat me to do for you. I love you and i need you please tell me. I don't wanna play games with you anymore i want to be real.

p.s.
If you guys are wondering why i keep blogging stuff like this is all the stuff i really wanna say to someone i know but i cant.

I thought i might write down how im feeling about something insread of keeping it bottled up inside so if you dont wanna read thats fine but i gotta write to kepp my sanity. i guess it kinda a poem about someone i know.

When i hear your voice i melt and can't come back to form. You make me so mad when you talk to other people and not me. Why can't you love me as much as i love you. In fact my love fo you runs deep and it won't ever leave. You can hurt me but i keep coming back for more. You say you wanna be with her and but why not me. What does she have that i don't have. Is it the way i look or the color of my skin. I think that me and you could be happy together but i guess you dont think that. When i get mad at you its hard to stay that way because when you call i run to the phone. Why do I love you so (censor) much. It kills me to see you with them other girls cause they dont treat you right. I could though be everything that you want and need. If i know that you thought of me it makes me gleem with joy. I need you. I want you. But i dont think that we will ever be and i have to come to terms with that dont I. Well if i dont stop writing ill go on forever. Dont forget me my love. Peace

[Edited by: Moderator2]

Hay whsts good with you. Well I am blogging cause i want to know someone else's opinion do you think i am depressed. I am never happy i'm always mad at people and i feel really numb at that same time. I mean i have a alot of crappy stuff going on in my life too. i just feel bad all the time and dont know what to do cause i really dont have anybody to talk to. I mad a bolg the other day and i just dont feel any better so somebody please replay. And my best friend won't stop being a child for a few seconds and listen to me

I have to go to this stupid party with my cousin and friend and grandma. I am in so much pain my back is killing me and i don't wanna go. Plus i dont wanna go around all these rich snobby white people that i dont like. I mean i dont want people to think i am raciest or something i am white i just dont like these particular white folks.Anyways i was board and felt like bloging. Have a better 4th than me if u read this peace.

Im board and tyring to start a converstation so here goes.

Who likes harry potter?

Who is your favorite character?

Which character resembles your personality?

Do you think that the next movie will be great?

Which Book did you enjoy the most?

And if you have read the last book did you like the way it ended. ( i havent read it yet so dont say to much please.)